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Last night, my dad's sisters came over to my place to show their support for my mom.
Even before sitting down, my aunt hugged my mom and all the pent up grief that my mom had wrapped up within her broke lose. she wept for 5 long minutes.
it was heartwrenching and heartwarming at the same time.
my aunts said this and it sent a warm fuzzy feeling through my soul: " No matter what, you all are still part of the Chock family and we'll always be here".
it's like even though my mom is not blood related to them, they have treated her as their own sister.
as usual, everyone has so much to say about the house/ assets division/ maintenance fees. honestly, im sick and tired of all this money talk. i just sitting there listening to them talk and brainstorming every possbile way to secure every single cent, being like a third party. i have nothing to say. i have no more opinions.
cause i just know, things will change so quickly again.
just like how my mom changed her mind about moving house for 3 times. initially was was outraged at her fickleness, then now i've come to terms that nothing is for sure.
so what's the point of committing yourself to believing something is going to happen and get so crushed in the end when things doesnt go your way.
for me, i rather pray.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."- Philippians 4:6
God has showered me with so much grace and love and words cant express my gratitude each time God answers my prayers.
and i know everything will be done in God's good Will.
I praise and thank God for the strength for carrying me through this whole ordeal.
yes i have come to accept the fact that my family aint intact now, maybe some of u may not understand why i've so readily forgiven my dad. it's just that i dont want this grief and anger to be eating away my life/ my soul. i dont want this hatred or any sort to affect those around me.
im sorry if i have seem nonchalent at times, but know that im saddened by this too.
i cant be hating dad. but i will be there for u to grief about it.
Even before sitting down, my aunt hugged my mom and all the pent up grief that my mom had wrapped up within her broke lose. she wept for 5 long minutes.
it was heartwrenching and heartwarming at the same time.
my aunts said this and it sent a warm fuzzy feeling through my soul: " No matter what, you all are still part of the Chock family and we'll always be here".
it's like even though my mom is not blood related to them, they have treated her as their own sister.
as usual, everyone has so much to say about the house/ assets division/ maintenance fees. honestly, im sick and tired of all this money talk. i just sitting there listening to them talk and brainstorming every possbile way to secure every single cent, being like a third party. i have nothing to say. i have no more opinions.
cause i just know, things will change so quickly again.
just like how my mom changed her mind about moving house for 3 times. initially was was outraged at her fickleness, then now i've come to terms that nothing is for sure.
so what's the point of committing yourself to believing something is going to happen and get so crushed in the end when things doesnt go your way.
for me, i rather pray.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."- Philippians 4:6
God has showered me with so much grace and love and words cant express my gratitude each time God answers my prayers.
and i know everything will be done in God's good Will.
I praise and thank God for the strength for carrying me through this whole ordeal.
yes i have come to accept the fact that my family aint intact now, maybe some of u may not understand why i've so readily forgiven my dad. it's just that i dont want this grief and anger to be eating away my life/ my soul. i dont want this hatred or any sort to affect those around me.
im sorry if i have seem nonchalent at times, but know that im saddened by this too.
i cant be hating dad. but i will be there for u to grief about it.
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10:18 AM
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