23 Nov Friday

You helped them to kill me
That's all that I'm willing to say
You no longer thrill me
All you do now is stand in my way

All they say makes me feel just as safe
I've lost everything that i own
All they say makes me feel
awefully blue and alone

I wrote us a song, you weren't singing along
But I hope you'll be missing me too
I held onto too long, I did everything wrong
But I hope you'll be missing me like I will miss you

I wouldn't say I've moved on
I wouldn't say I'm close to ok
Or that you no longer feel me
Or no longer stand in my way

I'm not too proud to admit to you now
That I'm still nothing more than a wreck
I do intend not to pretend til the end


this emo dark and blue song just stirs something up within in my heart.
it's really unfair how sometimes you mean more to that person than he/she means to you.
i guess this line " But I hope you'll be missing me like I will miss you" brings out that unfairness.

hmm i guess saying it as "unfair" is the wrong word to describe it.
sigh, it's just how come u are willing to give your heart out and just dont expect too much in return.
so i can never fathom unconditional love.
like would you love someone who would never love you back in return?
i know i cant.
and i still live by the belief that i would never love someone more than the person loves me.
yep, it's selfish but i guess im doing that to protect myself or i have not met the one whom im willing to give it all.


this is not the right time to be blogging about these issues.
social issues are non issues right? ha