all the time

it's good to have time on ur hands.
then u can wake up at 1030am.
sleep as late as you want.
watch ALL the desperate housewives episodes that is available.
read the newspapers. (drop ur jaws to find out that... eh.. singapore can host the F1 race?)
go gym.
bring pebbles to the vet.
try figure out what all those accounting books that you're borrowed in preparation of smu interview THIS SAT is talking about.
watch "23"
surprise ash after school (but he anticiapted it)
have driving lessons at 1205 slot (which is the cheapest!)
watch "stomp the yard" and left the movie halfway cause it was just tooo Bad.
do the laundry.
wash the dishes.
clean the toilet.
(hey hey. i seriously did all those household chores!)

hahas. and my mom is giving me 500 dollars allowance!
hmmm that's the price we pay for a Sri lanka maid right.. just that i dont come with the anxiety and shock that MUMs get when the find a Bangladesh guy in the house.
(that happened to my family before)

how sweet of my uncle to invite us and ashley and cliff to their 23rd wedding anniversary at ritz!
i just feel so much closer to my relatives after this divorce thingy.
i can really feel that they sincerely care for us. just like when i told them abt my smu interview, all of them are so encouraging and keep giving me tips and hints.
Thank God for them.

anw, was talking to mom abt the boon keng house. it'll be quite exciting for me to do up my room!cant wait to go furniture shopping!
just PRAY that the Fecgshui master will allocate me to the bigger room. hahhas.

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fallen short of His glory.

happy day.

2 days and half an hour more till im out of here!
yessss. ah yap agreed to let me go at the end of this week.
so i just gotta tahan mr-talk-so-loud for another 18 and a half hrs more.

which also means...
no more waking up at 7am in the morning and feeling like crap.
no more squeezing on the mrt train.
no more OVERCHARGED driving lessons (the after 6pm slots cost more. so much for price inelastic demand.. argggh)
no more chopping of seats at food centre with tissue paper
no more me on msn from 830 to 1800.
goodbye u horrible stuff.

im going to have a pinic for dinner! at the grassy area above raffles place mrt. yayss.. lalala.

great news!

so many good news in one day!

informed my boss that i will be resigning in a month's time and he took it really well. No hard feelings or anysort.
AND he mentioned to Dolly that he may even released me earlier (by the end of marcH) weehees. im a step closer to freedom!

and i msged PAINTBLACK( this freaking cool cafe at haji lane that i so badly wanna work at) and they said they are hiring! and jeremy, one of the waitors there is willing to help me get the job since he is ash's army fren.
hahas Ash is always helping me get a job. thanks dearie.

and BEST OF ALL! SMU CALLED! i got shortlisted for the interview next week. hahas. i so badly wanna get into smu too!.

everything is falling into place now.
cause You are the centre of everything.

Great is our God

this week has been pretty emotional.
lots of friction at home.
but thank God for bringing me through it.
it's times like this that i feel His blessings upon me so abundantly.

just lying down on the ground and gazing up upon the stars... how can anyone not be humbled to see the distant stars? aint it obvious there's a presence of a Higher Power? the vast darkness of the sky just overwhelms me... there's just no end, no limitations, no boundaries to God's creation.

Name above all names
Worthy of our praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God

beautiful weekend

love your job

Blah. Today’s a lousy day.
Mr Yap (my supposedly eyecandy at work who is also my boss) went to complain to Dolly ( who is Ash’s mother) who in turn pass on the message to Ash and he came to tell me that Mr yap thinks I’m using too much msn and sms.
I would have appreciate if Mr. Yap or Dolly came to me straight u know. I can really take constructive criticism.

I didn’t wail my hearts out. But I changed. Today was the first time I did my work for the whole morning without surfing the net. So please give me my first gold star at Getronics!

Im glad I took it well. I could have easily freaked out and roll eyes at Mr yap the whole day.
But the message I read this morning on my way to work from “Cure for common life” was about taking your job and loving it.
How amazing! God has prepared me to adopt the right attitude even before Mr Yap opened his mouth to complain about me. God knows how I would have reacted without His word and instead of abandoning me and leaving me to sin, He touched my heart with His word. God works in wonderful ways.

“My heart took delight in all my work” Ecclesiastes 2:10
Take Christ to work with you. Invite him to superintend your nine-to-five (but in my case it’s my eight thirty-to-six)
For God’s eyes fall on the work of our hands. Our Mondays are just as important as our Sundays to God.

To everyone who’s working! Love what u Do for God claims every part of your life. Give Him the honor He deserves.

Gotta make a mental note to take ah yap off my eyecandy list.
Okay. my eyecandy list doesn’t seem to exist anymore.

Happy Birthday Dad.
Doesn’t feel like his birthday.
He’s not even here in Singapore. I wonder if he knows about my A level results.
Haven’t talk to him for a week now.. hmmm.

post a lvl results

yes im very contented and with my results now. thank u very much.
initially it felt a teeny weeny bit crappy, when people around me with aab are complaining and whinning about their results and it really make me think, what's so fantastic about my results.
and the worst kind are those who asked how are my results. and i when i tell them i got ABBB, they are like "ooooh.. are u okay?"
hmmmm hahhas. so maybe abbb isnt good enough for them, but now i believe with deep conviction this is perfect in God's eyes.

we are never contented, never satisfied. Epicurus noted " Nothing is enough for the man to whom enough is too little"

am glad i went for cell group with Ashley after getting back results. Just coming before God's presence, all those anxieties and worries about uni admissions simply fade away. Being there, lifting our voices to God with songs and praises is a spiritual rejuvenation for me. It was one of best worship at cell I had!
ps. i so love the guitarist

went for driving lesson first thing in the morning on saturday. Instructor praised me so many times while i was doing my s course and crank course! hahas it's quite hard to judge how "good" i am now... cause there was one other instructor who keep scolding me when he taught me U turns! and i feel really sucky then.
oh wells. i will pray pray pray real hard that i will pass my driving test on 29 may! (to all my die hard fans out there.. pls rem to mark this date your calendar!)

and on saturday! met cuteboy for lunch. the company and food was awesomelicious. but cuteboy had to rush off to meet cuteboyno.2 (anyone interested in cuteboy no.2? , who is a indian-scottish by the way!) hahahas.
well, i just spend my afternoon at coffeebean sipping my ALLTIME FAV. mocha latte!
i got a regular mochalatte at the price of a small one, cause they run out of small glasses. sweeeet.
and had a good read at coffeebean. well cause i got this Christian book by Max Lucado "Cure for common life", it's about living in your sweet spot, and how to find God's special destiny for each one of us. i so need this book right now. this uni application nonsense will stress me out i know. anyhow, im really looking forward to SMU's open house this saturday. call me kiasu if u wish but i signed up for the smu talks already! muahahahs.

before A levels results

yup a few more hours till we get back "you-know-what".
am still feeling calm now, maybe cause im alone at home with no one to talk to about A levels. hahas

i hope i dont meet any "ganjiong-mama", those who always paint the worse case scenarios. and not thinking of the targeted results that i would like to have helps.

MUST THINK BIGGER PICTURE!! it's not about the number of As i would have but whether im eligible for SMU's finance course!
whatever it is, i rest my hope on God.

ok, i Am looking forward to meet s10! =) ha, we are gg curry wok and annie told me her class is gg KAP. u noe, all the usual NJC hideouts.
gonna take lots of photos later!
laterzzzzz

thechockfamily

Last night, my dad's sisters came over to my place to show their support for my mom.
Even before sitting down, my aunt hugged my mom and all the pent up grief that my mom had wrapped up within her broke lose. she wept for 5 long minutes.

it was heartwrenching and heartwarming at the same time.
my aunts said this and it sent a warm fuzzy feeling through my soul: " No matter what, you all are still part of the Chock family and we'll always be here".
it's like even though my mom is not blood related to them, they have treated her as their own sister.

as usual, everyone has so much to say about the house/ assets division/ maintenance fees. honestly, im sick and tired of all this money talk. i just sitting there listening to them talk and brainstorming every possbile way to secure every single cent, being like a third party. i have nothing to say. i have no more opinions.
cause i just know, things will change so quickly again.
just like how my mom changed her mind about moving house for 3 times. initially was was outraged at her fickleness, then now i've come to terms that nothing is for sure.

so what's the point of committing yourself to believing something is going to happen and get so crushed in the end when things doesnt go your way.
for me, i rather pray.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."- Philippians 4:6

God has showered me with so much grace and love and words cant express my gratitude each time God answers my prayers.
and i know everything will be done in God's good Will.

I praise and thank God for the strength for carrying me through this whole ordeal.
yes i have come to accept the fact that my family aint intact now, maybe some of u may not understand why i've so readily forgiven my dad. it's just that i dont want this grief and anger to be eating away my life/ my soul. i dont want this hatred or any sort to affect those around me.

im sorry if i have seem nonchalent at times, but know that im saddened by this too.
i cant be hating dad. but i will be there for u to grief about it.