this's not good. hahhas. im concentrating on my distractions. yikes. facebook/ msn and blogging is highly addictive now. and i still got so much work to do! haha. danson is gonna skin me alive if i dont do my bgs slides by tmr.

i just love mu05s10 facebook group. everyone's adding new photos and commenting on them. ha, like how much we miss those jc days. everyone's comments there just put a smile on my face and i was grinning like a silly idiot in biz law class today while facebooking.

anyway, i realised im really really slow on news/ happenings going around school la.

big news for me today! there's rumors going around that DP is gay! yikeeess. if's it true it's such a waste. seriouslyyyyy.. sigh.
so ezzah updated me on the latest "news" in smu... oh wells. i need a scholar to update me on school unhappenings. im so downright unhappening.

but i saw DP material on the way home from school today! on bus 147! :) which makes my day.

oh yar, Congrats on your FOC director post :)
ha, that is if you are still reading this...

tonight was denise's graduating dance performance! :)
am really proud of her. all the hard work that she had put in to make this show fabulous. finding time to practise admist this crazy school schedule is applaud able!
and i realised how stretchy and bendy denise is! jaw-dropping bendy! hahas. love you girl.
hahas. and denise jio me to go clubbing with her.
im like. "ha ha ha. im sooooo out of your league girl."
maybe i will just clear the dance floor for her to do her solo bendy act. woot.

dex thinks im mad with coffee. coz seriously. coffee gets me high. and all i had was a mocha.
and i think i made some cranky lameass jokes.
like how drivers dont give a P about my P plate when i make silly mistakes on the road.
okay it is not funny here but it really was!

and all this caffeine just keeps me up to facebooK! it's damn addictive when all your pals are like tagging and commenting on those good old' jc photos.
ha. i do miss njc and my fabTenlicious class.
thought i would be happier in smu than in njc. but i dont know man. 2007 has been a hell lot of changes for me. a hell lot of down moments.


From now on, I’m going to appreciate everything. We take things for granted all the time and don’t realize it. Think about your thumbs for a second. Okay, that’s enough. They’re just thumbs for crying out loud. We never think about our thumbs. Until we hurt one. Then you realize how important they are and how much you use them. Have you ever tried brushing without your thumbs? And you can kiss thumb wrestling good- bye. Your hitch hiking days are over. That may not be so bad for you but how am I gonna get to school.

I've got the break/ reward that I so needed today!
well it was that kind of reward that things in school have been going smoothly.

anyway, riding on a vespa is the best thing ever. especially when it's shiny red in color. bikes are just so stress relieving :) how hot is that?



and when was the last time i've looked up into the night sky? not sure. but tonight, the moon was really really bright.

new found freedom.

God has blessed me abundantly in school.
the 2 presentations went really well and my AS group mates (all girls) are really a fun and lovely bunch to work with. girls power!
got back my stats mid term today and it was good.

you're my favorite still

i actually had a project meeting on a SUNDAY. that's really sad but it was very productive as we came up with many models/ diagrams which im sure raj will be pleased.


and i just found out today that 1 of the guy in my project group is a LKC scholar! hahas. quite slow i know.
danson says that scholars are everywhere. it's no big deal. hmm i agree. well, im also a scholar. i'm under my dad's scholarship. haha

amazing GOD

im burning with excitement as im typing this out. God has been truly amazing and wonderful to me!

yesterday was the slowest, most painful day in 2007.
and today, with His grace and awesome power brought so much love into my life and i just can't stop praising Him.

i went to sleep last night praying that God take away all this sorrow and grief and in faith, He answered my prayers today.

i woke up this morning to long email from eugene, my close smu friend and chummy neighbor. eugene wrote of how he wants me to know that i'm not alone in this period of time and how he will be there for me emotionally and physically. and how we will have 4am breakfast at macs, or play frisbee if i ever need company.
i sense his sincerity and concern in this email and it overwhelms and touched me cause this friendship is barely 3 months old and i believed God has placed him here in my life for a reason.
thank u chummy :)

then i talked to Jenny (my cell leader) who has been such a great source of comfort for me too.
and of course ena, my beloved best friend who's just too awesome.
i feel so loved. so loved by them so loved by God.

and even my bgs project mate talked to me about God... how he shared his disappointment in his business law test and how he encouraged me to look onto the Lord. i mean sharing such personal stuff to a project mate is really really rare. especially when people say it's hard to find close friends in uni. and here we are sharing about our faith and life experiences.
God just blows me away time and time again.

and praise God i got a A+ for my bgs assignment. which im very very happy and thankful for. when i got back my script it was like i remember the feeling of being truly happy in a long long time.
then i went to my AS grp mate house to do some filming for our ppt next week. it was really fun. cause all my group mates are girls i had to cross dress to play the father. some of the scenes are hilarious. there is this bed scene! hahahas.
maybe i will show the video here some day.

and then when i reached home i found out that my biz law grp mate has the answers to the business law case (from his gf)that we are presenting next week. it was like a burden off my shoulder. what a relief i tell you!

and then the best part is i talked to my older guy cousin on msn earlier tonight. usually we arent that close and since he's in australia pursuing his studies, we seldom talk or see each other. but tonight he msged me.
we found out that we've both broken up recently. it was quite funny, i mean what are the chances when we seldom even talked!
he shared about the crap he went through, the usual horrid feeling after a breakup. (which i do understand) and then we talked about God. (which we never did!)

c h o c k says:
and that my void and emptiness is being filled by his purpose and His hope for me
c h o c k says:
i'm slowly learnign to trust Him
c h o c k says:
like literally trust Him...a test of faith..like if says ...jump into the darkness..i will do it
gladys] psalm 147:3 says:
yeah this emptiness in us will only be filled by His presence. not by partying.. by drinking or even looking for a new r/s but in HIs sole presence
c h o c k says:
and it's juz like a present in front of u..but u can't open it..
c h o c k says:
yeah..
c h o c k says:
so u got to be patient and when He says it's time to open u open..and u will see His works
c h o c k says:
and u will be happy
c h o c k says:
for me..i juz want to be happy with someone, to love and feel love, and that the relationship will be good in His eyes and that He will bless her and i everyday till eternity
c h o c k says:
tat's all i want now..i don't need a fast car..i don't need cash
gladys] psalm 147:3 says:
when me and my bf was on the verge of breaking up.. i told God. that no matter what his plans is for me.. whether a breakup or not i will still Praise Him. and by honoring hIm. he showered his love and help spped up the healing process
c h o c k says:
yeah
c h o c k says:
don't worry
gladys] psalm 147:3 says:
wow. im glad we are both there with God so close in our lives.
c h o c k says:
u cousin who is older than u..is going through the same phase as u..not exactly the same..but somewhat similar and tomorrow will be a better day
c h o c k says:
and it's going to be better not becoz it's gonna be easier..but becoz He's there to get us through wat the world has installed for us
gladys] psalm 147:3 says:
yeah. today has been amazing already! everyday shall be


P.S dont get confused. my cousin's nick is Chock. (he is afterall My cousin)

sigh. words cant express how much i wanna to praise Him right now.

in His arms He told me in,
on His shoulders i shed my tears
below His feet I will bow
and with my mouth i sing His praise forever.

AMEN.

the break up

i lost alot this week.

lost the first neoprint i took with ash. lost 60 bucks. and lost my 9 month relationship.

yup. you read correctly. and u read it here. im not here to announce or whatever. and some breakups can be so hush hush but i just don't want to do it like that.

it's painful. and i do get pangs of sadness from time to time. and that crappy horrid feeling when tears are welling up and I have to try so hard to stop them from flowing.

the Lord gives and the Lord takes away.
here is one door shutting but there is another one that is opening elsewhere.
I still praise you Lord.



here's to us...
In Christ. we've loved.

boon keng

Here's to report :this new neighborhood that I'm staying in has a very high mortality rate.
we have Chinese funerals going on like at least once a week.
the most I've ever experienced was 3 funerals back to back. and mind you, i use the word "experienced", not that im part of the funeral but that im the one who has to bear with all the racket.
the Taoist's type is the most creepy one. it gives me that scary vibe. bleahhx

then the shops below my flat all closes at 8pm. huh. is this australia?
or they think that we are all primary school kids with bedtime at 830pm?
cant they hear the racket that the basketballers are making in the court? those kids are surely in pri schools and their bedtimes are not till 12am!
hahahas. i love ranting about this boon keng neighborhood. but i still love this place.
coz it's literally a stone's throw away from the mrt station. and i've got a chummy neighbor :)

crap bag

there's this crappy feeling in me. and it's been around since friday :(
i just pray it goes away soon.

ena says love and pain coexist. guess it make sense. ena's always therapeutic in times like this.
and ena says too much contact brings about conflict...
what do i make of that?

whose shoulders are big enough to share this burden?
whose ears are attentive to hear this pain?
whose heart are big enough to take me in?

in victory i praise you Lord,
in defeat i praise You still

ellen no help

even Ellen Degeneres wouldn't be able to help me out here.
this is depressing.

term break my head!

i have this excel spreadsheet where I schedule whatever assignments and presentations that is dued.
haha the funny thing is, I have a fear of opening up this file. Cause every time I do, I will definitely get a shock! It's so scary how the deadlines are looming closer and closer :(
you think like after this or that homework, it will be the end but NO! the light at the end of the tunnel is always an oncoming train! (love this analogy!)
and this term break is a FAKE! it's more fake than the fake-iest organsm! more cheater than the most frivolous player around. cheat my feelings la. thought I could have this "term break" to have a kitkat. But nope. term break is just a politically correct way of saying " Catch up with your Work You losers!" hahahas.

KAAAA! gotta rush off now!

lazy tuesday

yes im a smu student. it's the mid terms now. and i just spent my tuesday afternooon at sentosa, suntanning and playing frisbee! :)

everyone around me seems to be rushing from 1 proj meeting to the next.
i hear of people sleeping really late, like 5am in them morning.
pple booking group study rooms to mug in school over the weekends.

and here i am. just chilling, enjoying the simple pleasures of life. like oreo and milk.
maybe one day i will busy as a bumble bee. but till then, im really thankful that this transition period back to school has been smooth and good.

2 mid term tests down! 1 more to go. (which happens to be a bring home test!)

breezy day

had my biz law test today. and prof dismissed the class right after the 1 and a half hr test. hahas.
how slack right.....im not complaining here.

so yesterday church went down to LOVE CLEMENTI.
we put up puppet show, cleaned the resident's house, provided free hair cut, organised kids carnival, provided shoulder massage services to the residents...
i did car wash with my cell... never washed so many cars/van/taxi in my life!
all went to a good cause, to the yellow ribbon project ;)


that's me hard at work! :)